the worst thing in the world is to be raised thinking and hearing you’re not good enough, and being compared to everyone else. because after a point, you start to believe it and it becomes all you know. an all consuming thought process the forces you to compare yourself to everyone and everything around you - whether its real or not. and you tell yourself you’ll never be pretty enough, skinny enough, smart enough, nice enough, polite enough - never perfect enough. you compare yourself to everyone, down to every detail. you have to be right, you have to be the best. everything everyone tells you becomes a criticism, a tip, a pointer, something to change, something to fix. you over think everything, you push people away - you just assume they hate you, you’re annoying them, they don’t want you around - so you push them away. you can’t make mistakes, you can’t mess up. you think you’ll never be a good enough person. and the worst part about it all - it’s all in your head and none of it is true.